6/25/2009

Diabetes and Bullies

I thought I would repost my story since Bernard and George both wrote about Diabetes abd Bullying , I thought id re post my story about D and being bullied that I had to write for a college writing class

If you have known me before this class you would see a different side of me before then now. I have been target of useless hurtful name calling and physical abuse. I don't know why it started but I had to deal with it for a while. The worst years of the bullying was in Middle School (Grades 6-8). But most of the verbal / physical abuse came when I was in 7th grade. The year started out all right although select few boys thought they would be fun to start calling me names like long neck, giraffe, and ugly boy. Then in middle of the year I found out that I had juvenile or type 1 diabetes and that just made matters worse. After 2 weeks being absent from school, I came back to more name-calling but now they were calling me AIDS Girl.

After I came back I had to go to the nurse and take my insulin injection and glucose reading and they would say better go get your " AIDS Medicine and Needle's" before you die. Also they started to attack me in the halls, push me into lockers and try to push me down the flights of stairs. It impacted me a great deal that after getting everything poured on me at once I started to get more and more depressed. I always was crying and telling my parents that I was never going back to that school.

The principal and some teachers thought I was the one to start everything but they never thought to look at the ones really doing the damage.


6/09/2009

Happy

I am back to work but I am more Happy that im sticking with testing much more and the Results, 

7  Day Avg - 141
14 Day Avg - 147
30  Day Avg- 142

5/15/2009

stuff

So I guess im not good at blogs, and I never generate any feeback.


I finnaly went to see my cde not that I wanted to .I had to for work all because one day I was 380 and I blew up at the manager.  I got the full picture that I havent been on the right track. I tested maybe the minuim of 4 times and I never logged and just bolused if i remembered too, so that has changed. I been testing maybe 7 times and using the ultralink to bolus right then and there and logging more. I been happy with the results although i have had lows down in the 40's and Highs up to 271 . I more happy I am not seeing any 300's or higher like I have. I mentioned I felt like a failure and my cde said your normal, for someone living with diabetes ittakes alot to handle. Also Not to mention I actually FEEL BETTER. Lets hope i stay on the right track for a long while. 

Getting blood work thats a new thing i have to start doing .guess I havent had that done since 2006, oops

2/13/2009

14 years

So where to begin. First of all I cant believe it has 14 years since I got Diabetes. It was one thing that wasnt on my mind back then and then bam it has came full throttle.  I somewhat knew about Diabetes since my Dad has it , but I wasnt thinking I would get it.   I remember when day that I happened to cut my finger and I asked my Dad to check my blood sugar and he did, I think the number was in the 300’s but we brushed it off because I was outside and my hands were dirty.

Then I get into 7th Grade. The year that we were old enough we could try out for a sport if we wanted to. I jumped on that bandwagon because I wanted to be that cool kid that got out of school early. The next thing I know I am in the nurses office for a physical for track. everything was going good till the main doctor checked my urine for glucocse and it came back 4+ meaning I was in the 400 range. He came out to me and started asking me all these questions and called my parents. Of course I thought id done something wrong and they were all upset.

Fast Track a few days later I was sitting in Home Ec  and I saw my mom walk up to the door and say something to the teacher and the teacher came up to me and said My mom had to talk to me and I was going to be all right. I somewhat forgot the whole diabetes thing for a few days but it hit me I had something wrong with me. 

The next few hours were a blur. I didnt want to go to the hospital but I had to and when I got there I hated it . The next few days were some of the best minus the finger pokes and shots. I got all the free  diet ginger ale I wanted and I could watch any movies I wanted to and I got to hang out in the rec room and got visitors all the time  , but I also had to learn about Diabetes. 

Even though i wanted to just relax I knew and Was told I had to learn all this stuff so I could do it the rest of my life. I found out id have to be on injections and order to leave the hospital I had to give myself one. I was lucky enough to have my Dad to practice on ( you cant get any better then that , could you?)  I did get to leave a few days later. I remember it was a Sunday and I gave myself my first shot and many more to come

As I look back on those few days I knew this happened because A Higher Power knew I could handle the added pressures of being a diabetic. Although there are times I feel like I have failed. get depressed enough that just give up for a few hours/days ,  and Just get angry at the whole thing , I just remember it can be worse much worse

 

Millions of  Injections

Millions of Blood Test

Millions of Highs and Lows

Millions of illnesses assoictaed with D

I cant be destroyed

2/12/2009

I thought id start blogging again. I cant keep any promises that I will write or that I will be any good at writing good posts .


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5/25/2007

5/23/2007

Health Insurance

Say it aint so but im finnaly getting health insurance from my work. woohoo, supposedly ots good insurance but im not sure on my pump and supplies, but I hope its good on that because my pump is way out of warrenty

5/16/2007

Anyone Know If I Can Move All My Post To A New Blog Service?

5/10/2007

Birthday Thanks

guess who's a year older today! yup its me. . Thanks for the Birthday Wishes , Allison, Kerri, Julia and Jamie you left me on facebook

5/09/2007

Facebook Anyone

Anyone have facebook? And is on The Diabetes OC? If so there ia a group called The Diabetes Oc on Facebook. If Anyone wants to add me go ahead

5/04/2007

Random Things

Anyone know of any sites that have cooler looking templates for blogger? I get bored with the ones I use .



My Favorite Movies

  • Ocober Sky
  • Stand By Me
  • The Goonies
  • Sandlot
  • Night At The Museum

My Favorite Singers/Groups

  • Third Day
  • Jars Of Clay
  • Green Day
  • Nickelback
  • Hawk Nelson
  • Needtobreathe
  • TobyMac
  • Newsboys
  • Many Many More

Tv Shows

  • Ghost Hunters
  • Anything Sports
  • News Stations
  • E.R.
  • Extreme Makeover Home Edition
  • Cartoons

4/30/2007

Still Here

im still here, didnt drop off the face of the earth just yet. been busy working / babysitting , nothing is new on the D front.

4/16/2007

Oops

so i go and buy root beer to drink last thursday and tonight I finnaly look at the can and lo and behold ITS REGULAR NOT DIET. There is only 45 grams of sugar but not to mention my sugar is 350 but thats can be from the spaghetti I ate and not testing before dinner



boy am i dumb

VA Tech Shooting

this is freaking crazy, whats going on in this world. My cousin and uncle were just there a few months ago and my sister and her husband live like 20 or miles away in roanoke . its just crazy



Virgina Tech Shooting

4/11/2007

Co Workers

Ok. I thought I had some good co workers but now they are hounding me on the things I eat on break. I been trying hard to eat something healthy like granola cereal and fruit or bagels, but I like to eat a cookie once in awhile and When I do they yell. Escpecially this one guy who is in his 60's and has type 2 and on Pills. He just chewed me out because he saw me eating cookes even after I had a roast beef sandwhich and he went on and on bout how he was higher then normal this morning and he was mad because he didnt do anything to be high


I know I should speak up but I feel if I do they will get madder. What do you Suggest or Do??

even after eating I was 104 and when I woke up this morning was 164

4/05/2007

George's Questions ........My Answers

1. What made you being and continue to blog?
I started to blog when I first saw they had an online journels. First it was to keep me updated on my friends that I worked at Camp with then it was to channel my anger and now just to see how others are dealing and living with the challenges thast diabetes bring you and I every day




2. If you could come back to earth as an animal, which one would it be and why?

That is easy. A Monkey. Because I always wanted one and they are cool. I can swing around in trees and be like my human self. I am always Monkeying around , HAHAHAHA











3. What is your favorite cartoon character? I have many favorites so here they go.

  • My First Favorite is Littlefoot from Land Before Time.

  • Spongebob Squarepants

  • Swiper from Dora ( I dont like how they are always yelling at at him for being mean) So thats why I Like him








4. If you had the ability to go back in time and play any role in a movie, which movie and role would you pick?


I would like to be the kid in the Movie
Blank Check. Who wouldnt like to get a blank check and put in a million dollars and get anything and everything you wanted , I know its an old movie but if you have kids, check it out









5. What is your favorite internal organ and why?

Ok this is wierd and tell you I really dont have a favorite. I would say Stomach because I love to eat and eat and eat and well you get the point

4/04/2007

Questions By George , Answer by Me

I been , well I volunteered to be a guinea pig of sorts to George's Wacky Weird questions ,but you will have to wait till tommrow as my computer is being a idiot and wont let me copy the questions from email to here, and im to tried to do it now. and besides 6am comes to early ( I start work at 6:30am .



So Sorry To Keep You Waiting

4/02/2007




LETS GO BUCS
2-0

Can the Pirates take 3 out of 3 from the Astro's? Stay Tuned Till Tommrow

4/01/2007

Medical ID

I need some help, I know I should but they plain one seem so dull and doesn't have any info on it. what do you or your kids wear? I saw this and it looks neat but I need more suggestions before I go and spend 20 some dollars on it



Thanks

3/28/2007

somewhere over the rainbow what a wonderfull world

I am in love with this song. its peaceful. check it out and here is more bout the guy singing

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Israel_Kamakawiwo'ole